SUNKISSED BRONZED PERFECTION

trestreschic

Akala ko ba susuportahan mo ako? Sabi mo tutulungan mo ako bat ngayon sobrang kelangan ko ng assistance e halos wala kang ma-i-contribute? Simple lang naman hinihingi ko e. Walk me through it. Just walk me through the whole admissions process, it's that easy. Akala mo ba madali saken ang mag-apply for admissions dito sa Canada? Halos dumugo ilong ko sa kababasa ng admission info ng Ryerson U at George Brown e! Kaya nga I'm asking for your help. Yun na nga lang hinihingi ko sa'yo. Tulong lang para naman mabawasan ang anxiety at stress na nararamdaman ko. Subukan mo kaya ilagay ang sarili mo sa kalagayan ko, tignan lang naten. 

trestreschic

Exhausted and still lethargic despite accumulating almost 10 hours of sleep. It's been a while, a long ass while since I last visited and actually deigned to post an entry here. A lot has happened. Well, to be perfectly honest a lot has changed. Today marks my first day in Canada exactly a year ago. Oh yeah, time flies by. Pretty fast if you ask me but hey, one could only go forward right?

Anyhow, I really don't have anything noteworthy to post, other than I'm sublimely happy, at the present I mean. More like now now. LOL. Lets hope this sunshiny-feeling lasts for a while.

SOFTAIL

6th July, 2004. 12:31 pm. La DI Da.. Ngi-te*

Guess who called twice last Sunday night?! Uh-huh! Mel Brian, Brian.. Whichever.. HE HE HE!!! Kita ka aku smile? Daku kayu!!! :D Bitaw, we had a nice long talk. I can't believe he's in Mnla. Niingun pa dyud sya na mas mayu pa daw na naa sya Mnla ke ni mscall ku niya cos kadto daw naa sya dri Cebu, aku ra daw sya awayun, then dli pa dyud daw ku tubag iya txt msgs.. Cute* Well.. Ye~ We've been communicatin -- Txtin, blah blah.. I said sorry for reactin the way I did and for sayin all those shits to him sa txt. Twus a BIG!!!! mistake [ as in! I wish I cud jes turn back time..!!! ] He said twus aright, para niya mura ra daw to'g bati na hangin.. Ngi-te* Am glad he's back in my life. Mayu nlng na forgive dyud ku niya, pero niingun dyud sya na he cud never forget what I said, when I told him "there wus never an US".. sigh* I said sorry, I told him na ingun ratoh nku cos of k'lagot and na irritated ku sa iyang mga reactions sa iyang gpang txt.. And I remember perfectly after I txted him that, wla na sya mu reply nku.. Sigh* I can't even forget the times we talked about things, things about me and him, and what wus the real deal between sa amua. He said he cares, but naa iya exgf ngexpect na mubalik sya niya.. Kadto sakit toh pero gidawat toh nku.. I even told him if she can make him happy then ok rah nku.. But he told a common friend na he's gettin back wit his ex to forget me.. [ whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa?! ugh* ], that's bullshit cos I told him I wanted to be wit him, kadto na time libog na kayu ku cos there wus somebody else.. Not somebody else na "bf" nku ha cos I wusn wit ny1 at that time, but there wus this guy tellin me he liked me.. But I wanted to be wit Brian, pero he pushed me away cos he thought niadto rku niya cos i had no1 na.. Twusn true Nyweis.. Enuf about that.. I've had enuf of those damn sad stories.. We agreed to take things slow.. We'll wait and see.. Am willin to take one step at a time wit him. He's a very nice guy, I can't blame him for hatin me and for sayin those things about me, I left him hangin, cos ye I hafta admit, he left me hangin too.. Sigh* Mk'libog nuh? As in! Till now muangkon ku libog ghapon.. And these lines from Jennifer Love Hewitt's HOW DO I DEAL is pretty annoyin already~ Been on my mind since last Sunday night, after I got off the phone wit Brian.. "how do I deal wit u, how do I deal wit me.. when I dun even knoe myself or what it is u wan from me how do I deal wit us, how do I knoe what's real when I dun even trust myself or hat it is I feel".. And right now, sya n'pud ang naay ex issue, the gurl is in Mnla, which is fine wit me. Wla ku selos or nything like that. If this will work, it will work. Am enjoyin our friendship, dun wanna assume, cos when I start assumin, then I'd start expectin. Mgwait rku na kani mismu mu work out ug iyaha, and tis yet too early to say nything. All I knoe is am thankful to have him back, thanks to Globe!!!--always "makin things possible" :-p Am hopin for the best and lasnite, he told me he's hopin too. Kilig kayu ku pero dli lng ku p'obvious.. HE HE HE!!! Bitaw.. I'll fill u in wit the developments, for now still the same, am very much single but emotionally unavailable.. CHAR!!! Bitaw, dli sd ku gnahan mu get into somein as of krun. Am havin fun wit friends, and I would like to see the outcome of this Brian thingie.. Ngi-te* I've let go of him in the past, dli nku gnahan mahitabo toh usab cos twus a very BIG mistake.. Gimahayan toh nku.. Tsk². So uhmmmmm.. I'll see him when he gets back from his training, he told me he might be home by christmas, or early next year.. Sigh* Nyweis, I gotta go. Mom's screamin like hell, gotta take care of "Taty" things.. So uhmm, I'll write soon.. Ngi-te*

SOFTAIL

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Then don't make it sound like aku syang g'away.. Dli mi babaw ug utok ni pitsay pra mg'away tungod nmu or kinsa mn daning lakiha.. FYI, we are very good friends, n wla'y mk'ruin ana mskan kinsa pna na lalake! Dli sd ku mu sugot! Kun gnahan ka niya, who am I pra mglabot labot?

Sayu's buntag uey, tagbuon ta'g inani! Atay!


Katrina Anne "KaTzKi" Galan | TSR
Sykes Asia (Phils.) Inc.
katrina.galan@man.ph.sykes.com
Tel. No.: 032 - 3489898
Mobile No.: 0916 - 2564445
-----Original Message-----
From: Brian [mailto:]
Sent: Monday, October 11, 2004 6:13 PM
To: Galan, Katrina Anne
Subject: RE: ma'm nangawai nasad ka ma'm?mutiguwang ka ana ug dali ma'm


ha?wa man tikaw awaya..ngano isog man ka?suko ka?
but nwyz..k na na..wala nai mag away..para wai samok...wala nalang..
dili man sad ko assuming..wala man ko nag ingon nga inyo ko gi awayan kai mura ko ug boang ana..basta ayo ayo lang mo...

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Kit'an ni kinsa? Kinsa mn sd dli m'inet? Ngbalik balik rman ning topica.. If mu ask ku ni pitsay reg ninyu mura nman ug unsang dakua na issue.. K'feel ku! Kun mgka kamu mn dani, I'll be happy for u both. At least lipay nka.. But kanang ignon ku na n'ngaway tungod ug lalake na issue, k'babaw sd tawn ana uey!


Katrina Anne "KaTzKi" Galan | TSR
Sykes Asia (Phils.) Inc.
katrina.galan@man.ph.sykes.com
Tel. No.: 032 - 3489898
Mobile No.: 0916 - 2564445
-----Original Message-----
From: Brian [mailto:]
Sent: Monday, October 11, 2004 6:34 PM
To: Galan, Katrina Anne
Subject: RE: ma'm nangawai nasad ka ma'm?mutiguwang ka ana ug dali ma'm


hahahahha..samot ka katiguwang ana ma'm..wahehehhe..kewl lang gud!!

init ra kaayo ka ug dugo sayo pa gani sa buntag...makit an nya ka imo lhalhubz nya bati na imo adlaw...

kewl lang....

bleh!

bitaw,ma'm ayo ayo lang mo oi..init naman kaayo ka ug dugo

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Ay'g k'balaka brian, I aready told pitsay muhawa nku istorya.net.. Dugay ratoh nghulat imung CDs..


Katrina Anne "KaTzKi" Galan | TSR
Sykes Asia (Phils.) Inc.
katrina.galan@man.ph.sykes.com
Tel. No.: 032 - 3489898
Mobile No.: 0916 - 2564445
-----Original Message-----
From: Brian [mailto:e05566@etelecare.com]
Sent: Monday, October 11, 2004 6:44 PM
To: Galan, Katrina Anne
Subject: RE: ma'm nangawai nasad ka ma'm?mutiguwang ka ana ug dali ma'm


di kai hadlok man siya nimo mao nga ako nakigstorya nimo ug nag unsa namo?
basig nagbinugnutai namo dinha...pero ok ra ma'm kai di naman ko mangawi ron nya di nasad ko manghilabot ninyo
wai kurat na ma'm...at least happy mong duha ma'm sa inyo kinabuhi...hehehe

bitaw,ayo ayo mo ma'm..then ma'm ok ra na ako hulman ako CD kai magburn ko

k raman kaha..pwede raman ako na kuhaon ngadto ra gihapon sa akong gibilinan..samans?

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From: Brian
To: katrina.galan@man.ph.sykes.com; pitsay@gmail.com

WALAI MOHAWA SA ISTORYA.NET....

gamai rana na prob oi..be happy..yaw mo mog ot!!!

mura ko ug boang nga nagspeech..basta yaw lang gud mo hawa kai mu mingaw na ang istorya..

then kinsa man ang nag away nga wala man...di bah?!

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SOFTAIL

12th October, 2004. 10:04 pm. ........................

Ayu² sa imung life. Salamat anang imung g'forward. I aready left istorya.net cos dli ku gnahan ug gubot n dli ku gnahan na m'alaan na n'ngaway ug tao cos in the first place wla ku'y right n another thing, pitsay is a very good friend of mine. Hugaw ra kayu ka'g huna² sa akua.. Mau na'y lisud nmu.. I have forgotten what happened in the past but sometimes feeling nku mura'g gatuyok lng ghapon ang issue. Am not as bad as u think I am. I knoe I've hurt u sauna pero I dint mean to. N dint I apologized abt it na? Murag feeling nku, yer giving me this guilt trip. Dli ku gusto'g gubot n dli ku gnahan naay k'away. Mau rna aku hanyu.. I jes hope ma OK na since I decided to leave na.. Again, ayu² sa tnan. Good luck wit whatever!



Katrina Anne "KaTzKi" Galan | TSR
Sykes Asia (Phils.) Inc.
katrina.galan@man.ph.sykes.com
Tel. No.: 032 - 3489898
Mobile No.: 0916 - 2564445


-----Original Message-----
From: Brian
Sent: Tuesday, October 12, 2004 10:21 AM
To: katrina.galan@man.ph.sykes.com
Subject: My Oath 2 U
Importance: Low

13th October, 2004. 10:12 pm. ???

i di ko ganahn ana nila..bayot2..g lang..ayo2..c ya 'round..text lang ko if kuhaon nako by sun or if fri...k enjoy!

-----Original Message-----
From: Galan, Katrina Anne [mailto:Katrina.Galan@man.ph.sykes.com]
Sent: Wednesday, October 13, 2004 7:01 PM
To: Brian
Subject: RE: My Oath 2 U

Mayu pa. I'll prolly go out sd cos I'm gon out wit my batch here in Sykes. Naa lge concert na MYMP sa Kaona Grill. If u purchase @least 100 sa Kaona, u'll have 50% off sa ticket. Tn'aw lng ana, lingaw guro na. Ngindot mna na accoustic band.

Katrina Anne "KaTzKi" Galan | TSR
Sykes Asia (Phils.) Inc.
katrina.galan@man.ph.sykes.com
Tel. No.: 032 - 3489898
Mobile No.: 0916 - 2564445

-----Original Message-----
From:Brian
Sent: Wednesday, October 13, 2004 9:57 PM
To: Galan, Katrina Anne
Subject: RE: My Oath 2 U

ei mas nindot ani nalang...di nalang ta lakaw..hehehehe..para walai gubot...thats ok.no prob....update lang ko beh unsa mahitabo this friday?unsay mga lingaw

----Original Message-----
From: Galan, Katrina Anne [mailto:Katrina.Galan@man.ph.sykes.com]
Sent: Wednesday, October 13, 2004 6:51 PM
To:Brian
Subject: RE: My Oath 2 U

Huh?! I told her that too.. Cos kun ibase natoh sa imung mga txt, it sounds like murag inana mn gd n'hitabo.. Which is also very unfair sakung part cos for one thing wla dyud ku'y plan manhilabot. Innocente mn kayu toh aku p'ngutana reg ninyung duha.. So again, if u wanna be wit her, I suggest kamu nlng duha mulakaw.. Pra sd dba, mk'talk mu'g tarong..

Katrina Anne "KaTzKi" Galan | TSR
Sykes Asia (Phils.) Inc.
katrina.galan@man.ph.sykes.com
Tel. No.: 032 - 3489898
Mobile No.: 0916 - 2564445

-----Original Message-----
From: Brian
Sent: Wednesday, October 13, 2004 9:47 PM
To: Galan, Katrina Anne
Subject: RE: My Oath 2 U

hahahahahaha..pareha ra jud mo duha ug gi ingon...

-----Original Message-----
From: Galan, Katrina Anne [mailto:Katrina.Galan@man.ph.sykes.com]
Sent: Wednesday, October 13, 2004 6:46 PM
To: Brian
Subject: RE: My Oath 2 U

Hilom mn kayu ang octoberfest this year, wla kayu bands. But MYMP is gon to be here on frid @ Kaona Grill.. Why man suko sya nmu? U knoe, if there's really somein goin on sa inyuha, p'layu nlng ku. Mas mayu cguro kamu ra mulakaw pra m'clarify ninyu. Feeling nku nk'samok na dyud ku.. N I never want that to happen..

Katrina Anne "KaTzKi" Galan | TSR
Sykes Asia (Phils.) Inc.
katrina.galan@man.ph.sykes.com
Tel. No.: 032 - 3489898
Mobile No.: 0916 - 2564445

-----Original Message-----
From:Brian
Sent: Wednesday, October 13, 2004 9:43 PM
To: Galan, Katrina Anne
Subject: RE: My Oath 2 U

ei..mura di nato mo adto...thats..i already told her about the plan...pero nasuko to nako ganiha..thats ok...text lang if mausab inyo huna huna..kai ngita sad lagi ko laag ana....unsa afair ana about ocotberfest sa friday?

-----Original Message-----
From: Galan, Katrina Anne [mailto:Katrina.Galan@man.ph.sykes.com]
Sent: Wednesday, October 13, 2004 6:41 PM
To: Brian
Subject: RE: My Oath 2 U

Kun unsa decision ni Jael reg anang laag, I'll let u knoe.. Ok? Thanks for the invitation.

Katrina Anne "KaTzKi" Galan | TSR
Sykes Asia (Phils.) Inc.
katrina.galan@man.ph.sykes.com
Tel. No.: 032 - 3489898
Mobile No.: 0916 - 2564445

-----Original Message-----
From: Brian
Sent: Wednesday, October 13, 2004 9:36 PM
To: Galan, Katrina Anne
Subject: RE: My Oath 2 U

k thanx..i think sa sunday nalang or fri

-----Original Message-----
From: Galan, Katrina Anne [mailto:Katrina.Galan@man.ph.sykes.com]
Sent: Wednesday, October 13, 2004 6:35 PM
To:Brian
Subject: RE: My Oath 2 U

Ang CDs naa sa haus, u can get it there..

Katrina Anne "KaTzKi" Galan | TSR
Sykes Asia (Phils.) Inc.
katrina.galan@man.ph.sykes.com
Tel. No.: 032 - 3489898
Mobile No.: 0916 - 2564445

-----Original Message-----
From: Brian
Sent: Wednesday, October 13, 2004 9:25 PM
To: Galan, Katrina Anne
Subject: RE: My Oath 2 U

bitaw ok ra oi if dili mu..k ra jud..juz askin...

-----Original Message-----
From: Galan, Katrina Anne [mailto:Katrina.Galan@man.ph.sykes.com]
Sent: Wednesday, October 13, 2004 5:53 PM
To: Brian
Subject: RE: My Oath 2 U

I'll ask Jael abt it..

Katrina Anne "KaTzKi" Galan | TSR
Sykes Asia (Phils.) Inc.
katrina.galan@man.ph.sykes.com
Tel. No.: 032 - 3489898
Mobile No.: 0916 - 2564445

-----Original Message-----
From: Brian
Sent: Wednesday, October 13, 2004 10:06 AM
To: Galan, Katrina Anne
Subject: RE: My Oath 2 U

ei im sorry if ing ana nimo pagsabot..i dint mean to say it that way..i tried to look for ways na masulti nako in another way.wala raman tingali ta gi awayan so theres nothing to say sorry for and hope your decision will change.i dont want anyone to leave or anything that needs to happen.am sorry.pero maynta migo ra gihapon ta tulo..uli ko cebu this friday.laag ta..kita tulo..saman?ge nah...for a fresh start...lets forget everything...yaw lang friendship...