come with me
My love
To the sea
The sea of love
I want to tell you
how much
I love you
Do you remember
When we met
That's the day
I knew you were my pet
I wanna tell you
how much
I love you
Break:
Come with me
To the sea
...of lo-ve
Do you remember
When we met
That's the day
I knew you were my pet
I wanna tell you
How much
I love you
back.
hmm.
i feel weird.
that cry i was waiting to have, happened. of course. it wasn't as long as i thought i would have but it was a cry nonetheless- hooray, i am a person with emotions.
although i was able to stop it abruptly. i don't know if that counts.
anyway, when we got there uncle ruben sort of subconciously forced me to make something for lola. i did. we shot and i edited (huwaaaaaat??? yes, i was tricked into doing it-they made me say yes infront of the coffin and i was afraid lola might smack me if i refused)
the finished product will never see the light of day of course (except to my relatives who have no choice but to think it's awesome.) It's not that it's butt-ugly, i can after-all shoot and edit if my life depended on it. i just hope uncle ruben doesn't air it. i am very shy about my work.
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just came home from drinks with raf, he just told me that mayans college friends are most afraid of me in our group of friends.
is there a rumor circulating that i kill people or something?
i don't even talk to these people! and that, raf said, is precisely why. He also said that i didn't care that's why they're afraid of me.
well... i still don't.
it's not like their opinions matter. i'm not gonna lose sleep over it.
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frick.
just came home from the farm. took v and ivy there to shoot the shadows press kit. we went to the babbling brook, but the part that ive never been before.
everytime i go there it manages to take my breath away. every single time.
whoohoo for my secret place! ahlavet
if i told you things i did before
told you how i used to be
would you go along with someone like me
if you knew my story word for word
had all of my history
would you go along with someone like me
i did before and had my share
it didn't lead nowhere
i would go along with someone like you
it doesn't matter what you did
who you were hanging with
we could stick around and see this night through
and we don't care about the young folks
talkin' bout the young style
and we don't care about the old folks
talkin' 'bout the old style too
and we don't care about their own faults
talkin' 'bout our own style
all we care 'bout is talking
talking only me and you
usually when things has gone this far
people tend to disappear
no-one will surprise me unless you do
i can tell there's something goin' on
hours seems to disappear
everyone is leaving i'm still with you
it doesn't matter what we do
where we are going to
we can stick around and see this night through
and we don't care about the young folks
talkin' bout the young style
and we don't care about the old folks
talkin' 'bout the old style too
and we don't care about their own faults
talkin' 'bout our own style
all we care 'bout is talking
talking only me and you
and we don't care about the young folks
talkin' bout the young style
and we don't care about the old folks
talkin' 'bout the old style too
and we don't care about their own faults
talkin' 'bout our own style
all we care 'bout is talking
talking only me and you
talking only me and you
talking only me and you
talking only me and you
Went to Ocean park with the sibs awhile ago. It was pretty okay until I somehow said yes to the offer of dipping my feet in a pool of CARNIVOROUS FISH! well, not really carnivorous. I spent about 15 minutes (of the alloted 20) shouting and semi dipping my heel into the water and pulling it back up once the fish start swimming my way.
they're eating you alive!!! aaaah! if anyone asks me, that's freaky deaky yo.
i was able to dip my right heel like 5 times and about the same number of fish were able to kiss it. heehee
blaah
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taking a break from watching Donnie Darko. my heart cannot take 1:40 mins of suspense all in one go.
ANYWAY, i just want to say that I WANT IT. Today, at my sanest, i can say that I want it. I finally want it.
...
uhh.. sooo.. what do i do next?
sooo i still don't know what to do.
..yet again:
1) a sign
2) inspiration
3) money
i like the new premium beer. its goodah.
hmmm. i think i drank it a little too fast and i might just..
not.
nope
lalala
I met up with Michelle and Nic today. I missed them! I missed my art dept. I missed cebu and everything that came along with it
The original soundtrack from the indie movie that i just watched a while ago is divine.
It's so golden that i don't think i wanna share it with the (my) world just yet. hmmm
lalala
the movie wasn't bad too. It was one of those raw love stories that are nowhere near cheesy that it was almost believable.
I heard the lead actors ended up together- not surprised.
I want to go to the beach!!!!!!
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i also have to stop eating like a pig. frick.
alright. i will now blog -furreals. not like my past few entries have been fake blogs, i just had nothing to say. But today, i decided that i will detoxify myself from facebook. I dunno why. maybe for lent. and so i would stop getting online and start friggin writing again.
i think were also going to the beach on sunday. thank baby jeezuz! hallelujah.
anyway, yea.. i was watching The Go-getter, one of the indie films (not the one with the golden ost. heehee) i group downloaded and there was this line that sort of got to me a little bit. It sounded nice and was very true for me.
The more you leave, the less you lose.
hmm
-after 3 minutes
There's really nothing to ponder on with that line, is there?
i'm bored.
it's friday the 13th again??
watched watchmen with max.
although the movie was sort of cool in a super hero, martial artsy kind of way, it sucked.
the opening credits were kick-ass though.
bleh.
I know what you're trying to do.
I'm sooo on to you.
oh dear god, please help me resist. please please please.
i really really want this...
i know i said that i haven't been feeling ANYTHING for the longest time now, but thanks to what happened just a few minutes ago i have felt a rush of blood to my heart and felt... angry.
it's no secret that I HATE MY SISTERS IN-LAWS WITH A PASSION (with the exception of my brother-in-law, who seems to be the black sheep in their FUCKED UP FAMILY).
i hate his dad, TITO ROGIE, who TRIED to ruin my dad's career and failed miserably.
i hate his mom, TITA MELLIE, the two faced bitch who treats people like crap.
i hate his sister, JOY, who thinks she's the greatest thing since sliced bread and is most probably the rudest person in the face of the earth.
i don't hate his other sister, MIMI, mainly because she's mentally sick and i think it's not her fault she's not getting the medication she needs because it's not her fault she belongs to a family who doesn't address her needs properly.
but she is crazy.
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i usually don't care for them or for anything they do because a) i don't need to, b) it's a waste of energy but especially because c) nothing has happened to me directly... until a while ago.
We had dinner in serendra and were walking to fro-yo to get our daily dose when Mrs. RUDY RUDERSON interrupted us and went to chat with ate and kuya rommel. I'm not known to pretend to like anyone so I smirked and walked a couple of steps away and stood there with ate ro and arend, waiting for them to finish. I had my back to her so i won't throw up on her fug face. ANYWAY, 10 minutes later, we're still standing there so we decided to go ahead. TO MY DISMAY, fro yoh was closed so we decided to walk back to serendra and get cupcakes instead. We got our cupcakes and sat outside waiting for them to finish- I still had my back to them. After what seemed to be an eternity, ate ro widened her eyes and said they were through and walking our way. FORTUNATELY, they didn't sit in our table and just continued walking. She shouted, "BYE RO!" and left.
I did not turn around.
I think, the only good thing about that is knowing that our hatred for one another is mutual.
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If i don't like a person, He/she doesn't exist to me.. and everyone knows that. SOOO, the beauty of what happened tonight is a confirmation that i can delete my brother-in-laws entire family in my head.
Thank god because i'm needing a bit of space in there for new, more important data.
phew.
i'm 4 days into my facebooking fast. it's not as bad as i thought it would be. although i checked one note yesterday, it was about my senior class reunion. that doesn't count i hope.
anyway, i just watched death at a funeral. fucking high-larious.
i've also been drinking my weight in water and milk. i don't know why. i hope that's some sort of a diet.
it's raining!
those sipaah straws are gooood. ate bought them supposedly for peppy, but i found myself drinking milk everyday because of it. its goodah.
I also have this contact for the airship who WON'T reply nor answer my calls... I WANNA TALK TO HIM ALREADY! but i don't wanna bombard him with calls or texts to avoid being like quinito who is bordering on stalkerdom.
ALSO, in other news:
from perez, i can always trust him with pictures like this that make my mornings week.
oi.
dirt has never been this zexxxy. mmmm.
was bored enough to play with the make up lying around in my room. i tried the winged eye effect.. ehh.. it's alright i guess.
i'm also watching the correspondents. the episode is about domestic abuse.
i'm so disgusted and upset (ha! more emotions!) by how some women just take it. that's just wrong!
If a man hits you, hit him harder- where it hurts. like his balls... or his wallet. HA!
I swear to the big kahuna if anyone even dares to think about hitting me, life, as they know it, will be over.
hay.
That stupid ass nicole person ate her fucking words in a sworn statement.
oh my goodness. 3 years after fighting a legal battle against this US miliary man who allegedy raped her, she suddenly has a change of heart and tells the entire world that it might have been her fault after all. jeezuz.
If the US gov't had just given her a green card early on then we wouldn't have had to witness that total waste of time and effort that is this subic rape fiasco.
I can't believe she's worth just that. tsk.
Not only did she jeopardize the fil-am relationship, she also made a complete ass of herself and manage to single handedly shame filipino women. ugh.
..and NO, i don't think it would have been better if she kept silent but if she had thought about "last nights events" THOROUGHLY before doing anything then everything would be hunky dory.
stupidity always gets on my nerves.
went to beers paradise finally! goood beer. i love them guiness beer. i think it's safe to say that i'm drunky a little bit.
then went to grilla after. had super fun with the integrated wed clubbers. did i spell that right.
dani did something ;p
ill probably explain more tomorrow.
let me sleep this off
haha. embarassing blog last night. but yes, i did have fun. haha
went to the amici food tasting a while ago- HEAVEN!
gaaah.. this whole airship thing is like we're on set without a p.m. or an a.d.
and i don't know what to doooooooo =o
i hope i really get my grip on this, i really want it to work.
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i buckled on day 7 of my supposedly new facebook-free life. but i bet i could go longer, especially because there's a new layout that i don't like. so i guess that's good. just had to answer messages and clear notifications.
ate's father in law is here. EATING MY BREAKFAST.
i wanted to throw my cup of coffee on his face.
but my coffee is too precious to waste on a fug face like his.
the reunion was good.
drunk
don't remember how i got home
it was good to see old faces.
i feel very restless.
i can't sleep. partially maybe because i took a nap before going out to dinner but mostly because my head is just so crazy with all this raw information that i don't know how to decipher. See? even without the drama in facebook, i still have a lot of crazicles to sort out through.
the general things i have to sort of file in my head are: last night, airship, script, company and just all around numbness.
not to mention, they all have endless subfolders that may have mini subfolders themselves.
oh wow.
it seems that i am about to lose my facebook-free battle. frick.
I SHANT QUIT!!!
i really really really really really really really REAAAAAALLLLY want this.
I have to work doubly hard now.
i need to starve myself for about a week.
i went to the atelier awhile ago to fit my gown for jax' rents' wedding. its nice! i just have to.. stop eating solids and crash diet the shit out of my body.
who cares if i might faint on the day of, just as long as i look stunning in my gown.
i am kidding of course. but i do need to lose a few in a week.
drugs anyone?
friiiick!
I watched what is probably the most fantastical movie i've ever seen last night. 28 minutes in, i could tell it was fucking fantastic. It's called The Fall, an indie made in 2006. It's sooooper doooooper cute. I think it connected to the child in me that's why i was wide-eyed the entire 2 hours of it.
yaaaaay!
my movie watching was interrupted by sharp knocks on my door.i opened it and my sister and mom were at the dining table.
apparently kuya jr, our driver who we let go 2 months ago just died.. like a few minutes ago.
he had a gun to his mouth.
...it's not suicide.
they were drunk and he thought the barrel was empty.
i feel sad and at the same time angry for wasting a life to stupidity.
yes, he wasn't my favorite of all time but it's too tragic, he was young and was set to marry our best sales rep in honda. oh jeezuz.
shit.
i feel a cold coming on. this weather has proved to be a grade-a bitch. my head is about to explode.
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I had you there in the palm of my hand
Saw that smile you gave that girl
Haven’t seen that smile in such long time
Don’t do this to me again
The watch you left when you walked out that door
Couldnt save you from yourself
Haven’t seen that smile in such
A long while
Dont do this to me again
So I went out
To find out what I was looking for
Found the key
The key to all the doors
Told a few lies
Still I cant forget
Don’t do this to me again
Had you there in the palm of my hand
Saw that smile you gave that girl
Havent seen that smile in such long time
In a such a long time
Dont do this to me again
Dont do this to me
i bought a new harddrive. to back up my shiz technically but i don't need it yet, but i bought still. oi.
uhh..
so we forgot about earth hour.
it's 9:30pm right now and we just turned off our lights.
hey, it's 8:30 in russia.
bored and couldn't sleep. since im still on a facebook fast, i went on myspace and just checked old inbox messages.
i'm not really into online dating and flirting or whatnots but i remembered that there was this ONE dude i replied to regularly. I don't know why. maybe because he's a hot-tea, also maybe because dani was typing and replying for me. ANYWAY, he's a pilot now! haha how interesting.
my head hurts still!!
all right.
i bought shoesies for the wedding. it's totally gorj but its 10 inches hiiiiggghhh! i'll be practice walking around the house for a week so i won't embarass myself and stumble at the aisle on saturday.
also because i thought i should start wearing heels... all because of seaofshoes.com <3
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yesterday we also went to mass. (whhhhaaaaaat) but dad's office sponsored it so we were there. said hi to an old friend which was good, but he pretended not to recognize me but i could sooo totally see right through him- ha! anyway, yea.. have to get back to writing.
was at sassa's to hang out. twas good. reminisced.
I MISS HIGHSCHOOL!
