SUNKISSED BRONZED PERFECTION

well, my neighbors decided to go out of town for the weekend so they turned off their internet. i'm now in manila.

11.27.08
Thanksgiving was okay.
we had a grand dinner, help prepare most of it.
i can't connect through my stolen network. it fucking sucks. were guessing that the neighbors went to vacation and turned off their internet. mothafucka.

the next time i'm gonna have to connect might be on sunday or worse, when i get to the pi.

see? i couldn't have entered cinemabu even if i wanted to.

11.29.08
well, today is our last day. we spent it... spending. : ) went downtown and spent money, then ate at good-ha, then went to an outlet store nearby, then went to the mall to eat, then went to the $0.99 store to splurge some more. heeeheeeheee

i had this weird urge that i wanted to stay some more.. just as my neighbor turns on their internet. i could still stay a week.. or two.

gaaah! i wanna send out my synopsis to my core group already!

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there. let me go get a shower. i smell like the airplane. ick.

woke up at 4am. can't sleep anymore.

been walking around the house looking for things to do. i'm already bored, can you believe it? actually, i'm not supposed to be bored. i'm supposed to be starting my script. hmm.. at least in the states it was okay to be bored cause i was in semi-vacation. hmmm..

what to do today:

1) write

right.

fine.

i caught another one. although i shouldn't really take all the credit for it, anyone who had them both in their friends list would have known.

i should be the real gossip girl i think. not.

Mary, who's an old HS school mate is ex-"BFF's" (as they would insist on calling themselves) with KC, an aquaintance (and the best friend of my former Lasalle Blockmate, Steph) and now theyre bashing each other through comments and blogs in Multiply.

I don't really care much about it, as usual. It's just fun to string these blog posts, comments and status updates together.

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I'm trying to get ate to go and watch yanggaw at indiesine so i can hitch a ride and maybe force her into waching upcat too.

lalala

ha! finally!

it feels weird.

but i'm not complaining!!!!

went to dinner with two of my bestest friends.

had mojitos and fries. heehee <3

i missed those two.

i woke up to rain.

i'm absolutely giddy

this day is going to be good i think.

got my retainers today.

i have a listhp.

i think i'm really gonna have to organize that Christmas party thing, even though i told people i just MIGHT. hmmm. one more sign maybe.

"Papa!" she whispered. "I have no eyes!"

     He patted the girl's hair. She'd fallen into his trap.

"With a smile like that, " Hans Hubermann said, "you don't need eyes."

-The Book thief

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I had a fleeting thought awhile ago when we were turning left out of McKinley into Lawton Ave.

Why would I be afraid of telling someone I have feelings for them.. wouldn't that be their problem after I've said it?

Of course there's the rejection, the fear of unrequited feelings, the ridicule and all those other things, but I think given my past, i'd wallow for a while then forget then move on.So i think i'll be okay.

I don't know why i was so scared.

how sweet. made up for the days lost.

i hope against hope that its the same person in my head.

retainers are a fucking bitch.

Not only do i STILL have a frigging lisp, my tongue is also swollen from all the scratching in the wrong metal places. it hurts just to even talk.. which might be doing me more good than i think.

BUT, i can remove it whenever so its good.

hmm i was also reading this book that was telling me what i already know. so yea, it was a waste of money.

I haven't started writing. I KNOW i should. Britney says I should. ha. hmmm..

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AHAHAH i was browsing through posted photos from my HS friends. i saw this girl we used to call "sex".. guess what. she still looks like sex. aaahahahahahahahhahahhahahahahahah and its not even like she has this appeal or she looks like a siren.. she just looks like ... sex.. and its not a good thing.

those were the days.

I gave jackie a play by play yesterday.

i have come to the conclusion that all of this is... wonderfully crazy.

and i guess.. even though i bitch and whine i wouldn't have it any other way?

tssss.

On to lighter news:

Watched Yanggaw yesterday. GOod. Went to Fword after to eat din din and drank the new premium beer. good. 

I also decided to have that gathering..

good

i guess

we are like chuck and blair.

go on. think about it.

i made eggnog!

and i'm still alive!

heeehee

i tried on different colored nailpolish for my trip to the salon tomorrow morning.

i don't have acetone to remove it so now i have m&m colored fingers. 

hmmmm.

I'm thinking if i should just continue coating my fingernails with random colors or just wait until tomorrow and have just 4 painted fingernails until then.

21 years and this is what i'm wasting my time on.

i really should be writing.

5 days shy of one month..

i'm done.

really.

i woke up and theres no one here.

really.

i woke up and ate ryce and peppy were already going out. I know mom and dad are at the farm today. I walked in arends room and saw a bag. also  noticed the bikes were gone..

hmm.. i need to shop for things for tonight. I should just go. no one's here anyway.. i wonder where mom keeps the cash.

..for not coming. i needed that i didnt see you.

thanks for not showing your fez.

although i had a lot of fun and would like to have had you there... as a friend.

but thank you. thankyou a million times.

i can't sleep yet. everytime i close my eyes the room spins and i 'm afraid to throw uppy on my floor. i don't want to wakeup to that tomorrow. i think im just gonna stay awake until this goes awaaay.

well.

i may have embarassed myself for the nth time. Whats funny is that it didn't happen during the party.. it happened after, when everyone was gone and i was on the internet. (see 2 previous posts). I should really disconnect my internet when i plan to get wasted.

like all the other nights, i don't remember shit.

haay one weekend older.

I was in a small cemetery and infront of me was Ricky Davao's Tombstone. It was as tall as I am. I wasn't afraid at all considering that i'm a self confessed coward. He appeared in front of me and said he would have wanted to get to know me if he was 10 years younger.

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I was in a school cafeteria and was eating with an unnamed *geek*. The jocks came to the table to torment my friend. I told my friend to try and relax and just be himself- he freaked and walked out. I walked after him leaving the jocks at my table. We fought and he threatened that they wouldn't treat me any differently. I went back just as the jocks were leaving my table. I just said a simple, "Hi Boys" and they sat back down.

I remember feeling sad after the fight I had with my friend when the guy right beside me said, "i'm a scorpio." "I'm a Libra,"I replied. Then i sort of reached out and touched his nape with my cold hands which he seemed to like. I was also running my fingers through his hair.

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I was at the beach with some of my friends. The jock named John was there with his other jock friends. I had Scuba diving lessons and found out the instructor was one of his close friends.

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I meet John's family who seemed to like me a lot. I remember having so much fun with his entire clan.

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We decide to go home and on the way, we passed by a small cemetery. The boys were gone at this point and it was only me and some of his cousins. I remember thinking, "please let it be thriller." And it was- a little bit. His girl cousin and i had to whack some zombies with a couple of twigs and then a big flat screen tv in the corner of the cemetery turned on and when everyone had recovered from the zombies, we realized there were rockband consoles set up. and so we played.

the boys came in now along with john and he said, "i want you to meet my dad." He pointed right behind me and it was Ricky Davao's tombstone. When I looked back at him he was down on one knee and before he could say anything I said yes.

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I'm no dream expert or anything but was that fucked up or what. HAHAHAHAHAH

Tyra: When you said, "you weren't taking it anymore," what did you mean by that?

Tom: That I'm not taking it anymore.

Tyra(To desiree): Tell him what you are.

Desiree: Im not just doing it because i don't care ab-

Tyra: Tell him youre the "A" word. Tell him what you are.

Desiree: I'm Addicted to shopping, I'm a shopa-

Tyra: You're an ADDICT.

Tom: I can't do it anymore. I'm sick of it.

Tyra: So what are you saying?

Tom: I'm tired of the fighti-

Tyra: So you want a divorce? is that it?

Tom (hesitates): Uhh Yes.

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NICE TYRA.

am i not boring when i'm not all up in my head or what.

..and that somebody is me.

DAMN YOU SALAZAAAAAR!!!!

HD Vidcam + Top of the line editing program = good films

supposedly.

nobody told me i was supposed to capture and edit my own shit.

motherfucker.

Today was the Farm's Christmas party. I had so much fun it's crazy.

Ate Ro and I also hiked the bike trail and went off-trail to look for the hidden babbling brook. It's as beautiful as I remembered it.

MERRY CHRISTMAAAAS!!!!

1) Shisha Pipe

2) A pink Parker pen with a "next great idea" engraving

3) MONEEEEYYYYY!!!

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also, the noche buena was wonderful and we spent the day again at the farm.

..for that road trip i've been wanting.

In 8 hours we'll be driving to Banaue for the first time..

and then drive up some more to other provinces and have a pitstop at the beautiful Laoag. After, we'll drive down to Ilocos Sur to visit the relatives and then maybe to Baguio. <3

YAAAY!! I loooovee!

5 adults

2 kids

4 days

3 pit stops

From my inbox draft:

12.28.08- Banaue rice terraces. Fucking amazing. The view is insane. I love the Philippines and all its history and culture. It's so overwhelming- i feel so blessed.

6pm Cagayan- Passed by the Northern most part of the Philippines (that is not Batanes). We caught a sight just as the sun was going down and can easily tell it is beautiful.

9:30pm Laoag- I saw the alleged sinking bell tower. It's a shame i wasn't able to take a pic with it.

12.29.08 Vigan- It's impossible to retain my no-rice diet. Vigan Longganisa is the best.

3pm- Lola opened her eyes

5pm- Decided to head to baguio with no more clothes. :D

9:13pm- Almost at Green Valley. I'm nearer to the stars, its like i can almost touch them.

12.30.08 Cafe by the Ruins 10:30am- My no-rice diet is ruined.

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4 hours till 09.

iyehey.

i think i'll be drinking to the year that was. expect a semi drunken blog from me in a while.