let me get into the right frame of mind here so that angry words can flow out freely.....
I have a few things I would like to rant about, but unfortunately, i am not yet in THAT zone to release it.. sooo wait a while, yea?
--- a few hours later
Alright. I have cracked my knuckles. The way I do before writing whatever. I have motivation for my rant and what motivation it is. I was just sitting here infront of my lappytop, reading the new installment of my uber favorito book serial, confessions of georia nicholson when my dad came out to look for something to eat.
that is motivation enough me thinks. I shall just semi-censor any names because quite frankly, i do not care if the whole world reads about it (which i doubt) and everyone involved gets-well, involved.
It is MY blog yes? it is MY life, yes? so fuck off.
I am also completely pre-hormonal so i expect a bucket of tears and my fingertips to bleed before this entry ends. Here I go:
A little back story:
-I am a military brat, my father is a military officer. He just got promoted to rear admiral which is super and puts him in the running (SUPPOSEDLY) to be the Flag Officer In Command aka foic aka head of the Philippine Navy.
-My eldest sister is happily married to the eldest son of the current foic. Theyve been going out since before training bras and the circumsion stages and they have a bouncing baby boy who doesn't stop bouncing.
-The foic is assigned by her gma-ness. she chooses from THE LIST that worked its way up from the bottomest of the ranks. It passes through several department heads and ultimately the FOIC (my parents balae..[how the hell do you spell that in tag?]) who finally "recommend" his top picks among the 'next-in-lines.'
Character Bio's:
-Tito R*g*e. The seemingly harmless current foic who is really a two-faced liar. He is not skilled with whatsoever except maybe smoking cigarettes and a little golfing. I could run the Navy better, I might say.
-Tita Me*l*e. The better half, who i believe wears the pants in the relationship. This big kahuna secretly whispers into a little mic at the backroom of tito r's office which transmits instructions into his hairpiece. Or so I believe.
-Dad. Of course, the protagonist. With no bias whatsoever (yea right) this guy has been working for this position for most of his lifetime. Primarily to help the Navy, and maybe do a little bit of golfing here and there as well.
-Defensor, (i don't know his first name) who
is a complete TOOL and doesn't know how to be a decent person, is also
in the running to be foic. Everyone knows this guy is secretly
beelzebub in the wee hours of the morning. My other sister and I love
to piss him off by having parties until sunrise with our loud ass
music. ha.
Okay? Okay.
So everything really started when tyce and kuya rommel hit it. It was a match made in heaven. He was her first and last, and they sealed the deal with a wonderful wedding ceremony 2 years ago. Who knew she was marrying into such a two-faced family? no one. that's for sure.
Shortly after, tito r got promoted and was 'next-in-line' to be foic. He wasn't actually supposed to get picked because.. well, he's no good, but Mr. Genius Esper*n over at the Army base had to poke his dirty little fingers into other peoples cookie dough and next thing you know, tito r's at the foics residence lining his cake with gold icing.
For reasons unknown, Tito R has been trying (note the TRYING part) to sabotage my fathers career ever since he noticed that my dad is actually good and can kick his ass in cake decorating. My father on the other hand has his hands tied behind his back because 1) Tito Rogies a much older baker and 2) his bala-eh (im trying diff ways to spell it, really). So fine. We grit our teeth and smile our fake smiles.
commercial: this topic has gotten me so upset that i've gone and scoured my kitchen for junk to binge on.
back
Busy lining their cakes with gold icings, they ran out. Where do they run to? The Navy's Bake shop.. which they generally manage
FOR THE MEAN TIME. They open the special fridge(where they keep the gold icing) and ask the cashier (my dad) to keep mum about it. Given the two reasons above, my dad does and continues attending to the customers.
months later, its time for a promotion. My dad gets it and is promoted to pastry chef but not as easily as you would've thought. Mr. General Manager over here tried to pin the mysterious golden icing disappearance to the lowly cashier, but since they cant prove it, it was forgotten. blahblahblah
fast forward to last week where my dad is promoted once again to associate manager, you'd think that Mr. General manager would have the decency to at least try and put him on the list not only because of all the things this once lowly cashier did for mr. general asshole, (oops, did i just say that? pardon my honesty) but because down on paper, he KNOWS that this cashier is the most qualified.
So can someone please explain to a humble writer who knows nothing about the politics of cakeshops and baking, why, WHY didn't mr. general manager put my fathers name on the list and put beelzebubs name as number one and passed it on under the table to her gma-ness? WHY?
and also, while you're at it, can you please find me an explanation to what my father saw scribbled at the spaces of his resume. Apparently, the board of cake shop owners said that the reason as to why my father isn't in the list is because he is too "straight"...meaning he can't be bribed or cant be talked to under the table.
So, correct me if i'm wrong, they are looking for someone who is corrupt? is that it? They overlook a mans work because HE IS TOO HONEST?
what world are we living in that being honest is not enough. or where being honest doesn't count at all.
I've just scratched the surface. There is more to this issue than gold icings and cakeshop lists.
I spit at Tito R*gie. I spit at the board of generals.
They will get their just desserts, I know... I actually hope they do very very soon.
Let me get things straight, its not the end of the world for us if dad doesn't get the job, sometimes i wish he won't go for it anymore so we can live our lives quietly. But he worked for this, and he deserves it. At least give the man a fighting chance, you know?
I've always believed that the Philippines could still change. But after this little scenario, I don't think it will ever. This is one of the many reasons why.
phew...
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I aplogize for the length.. and for the pastry metaphors. I can't help it. I cannot write for a newspaper. If any good came out of this, its the knowledge that I am indeed a fiction writer.
Anyway, yes. I am still vair vair upset. My father is a very great man and he knows how to deal with it but I know he is taking this very seriously. I hope he knows we are right behind him all the way.
Currently feeling: disappointed
but i guess if i want to live longer...