Entries for July, 2007

July 2nd, 2007

hullabaloooo

well, its been 4 days? been to manila and back. ALL GOOD! got semi drunk last friday. heeeheeeheee

ANYWAY, i'm here.. and i dont like ian anymore. JUST LIKE THAT. i think i like this new guy... he just walked in class the other day, but he had the wrong classroom. anyway, yea... looks a bit like jay jay helterbrand.. me likey ;D SOOOO, yea... something new to get busy on: the Dani and Pao project. me thinks they like each other. yaaay.

so yea.. hmm what else, shooting week this week. SCARED LIKE HELL for mine. uhhhmmm.. and then.... uhhh what else... can't think of anything else...

ooooh.. i just realized that all of the girls in the school are drooling over the hot cage guy. hahaha

later

Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 10:16 PM | criticize please

July 6th, 2007

SHOOT

well, been shooting. just got up from my well deserved mid-week catching up of sleep. details later. our delivery is here

 

Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 09:57 AM | criticize please

July 7th, 2007

..pahabol

i almost forgot... Good luck tomorrow, I'll be watching.
Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 01:19 AM | criticize please

July 11th, 2007

been awhile

hello hello. been super steady the past days/week... uhh yea, that's good i guess. anyway, i haven't really been keeping anything in so i don't have much to write about? like i've been pretty transparent. my cebu friends know what i'm thinking about.. so yea, i think thats good. or the things that i keep from them don't really deseve to get written for documentation, yknow? its more embarassing than anything really.

lalala

hmm... what else...

boytoys are abundant. not interested in any.. except maybe one. still ian. even if i already said i don't like him. just so i have someone to get excited about. im already used to the people around here. i need new faces, new challenges. that jayjay helterbrand  look alike isn't so "sparkly" as he was when i first saw him. lost that too. its just me and the movies.. us against the world hahahah

Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 08:50 PM | criticize please

July 12th, 2007

amy winehouse- tears dry on their own

All I can ever be to you is a darkness that we knew
And this regret I got accustomed to
Once it was so right
When we were at our high
Waiting for you in the hotel at night
I knew I hadn't met my match
But every moment we could snatch
I don’t know why I got so attached
It’s my responsibility
You don’t owe nothing to me
But to walk away I have no capacity

He walks away the sun goes down
He takes the day but I’m grown
And your way,
In this blue shade
My tears dry on their own

I don’t understand
Why do I stress a man?
When there’s so many better things at hand
We could've never had it all
We had to hit a wall
So this is inevitable withdrawal
Even if I stop wanting you
and perspective pushes through
I’ll be some next man’s other woman soon
I shouldn't play myself again
i Should just be my own best friend.
Not f**k myself in the head with stupid men

He walks away the sun goes down
He takes the day but I’m grown
And in your way,
In this blue shade
My tears dry on their own

So we are history,
Your shadow covers me
The sky above
A blaze

He walks away the sun goes down
He takes the day but I’m grown
And in your way
In this blue shade
My tears dry on their own


I wish I could say no regrets
And no emotional debts
Cause as we kiss goodbye the sun sets
So we are history
Your shadow covers me
The sky above a blaze
That only lovers see

He walks away the sun goes down
He takes the day but I’m grown
And in your way
My blue shade
My tears dry on their own

He walks away the sun goes down
He takes the day but I am grown
And in your way
My deep shade
My tears dry on their own

He walks away the sun goes down
He takes the day but I'm grown
And in your way
My deep shade
My tears dry
Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 08:38 PM | criticize please

July 13th, 2007

friday the 13th

its friday the 13th today... ooooohhhh! i suspect everyone will be at their weirdest? i dunno though if its full moon. if it is, then i will turn into a werewolf. I wanna go see harry potter! (see i'm weird already)

 anyway, last night i had a semi-day dream/real dream. in my head, i was "molesting" ian. hahaha funny stuff. well, not so funny really. more like a "oops, that's how much i think about it" kind of thing. haha! oh well. girls will be... well... maarte.

hmm i also have something to say about this friend of mine. she's been slacking. i mean, she's a great person and a friend but her study ethics are abysmal. MORE abysmal than mine. at least when i slack, i still do what needs to be done? well she doesn't. she slacks. period. like for her shoot she didn't follow a script, her story kept changing blah blah, she's ALWAYS late for class. never got there on time or earlier, and she deliberately missed a quiz for class. i don't know if she'll last! i mean, whatever her deal is... its not any of my business but cmon, she should at least feel guilty that she's wasting money, right? bleh. none of my biz

ANYWAY, spent most of yesterday in the editing room. I AM ALREADY SICK OF MY SHORT. i hate it. its UGLY!!! goodness.. i wanted to ruin the tape and just fly back to manila. its that ugly. ew. ew. ew. ew. i needed to take breaks often because if i didn't i probably would have banged my head against the metal pole already.

i have a feeling that i will start smoking soon... ergh.

ooh and jayjay lookalike showed us this mtv he made with ian. super good! i bet it was a headache to shoot it, they used 4 tapes for a 4-5 min song. hahaha it was really good. and the song was nice too!

CRAP, now i have to go back to editing and stare at my ugly-ass short for another 2 hours. ew.  

Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 08:18 AM | criticize please

July 14th, 2007

aaaaahhh

how else can a girl end friday the 13th? well, first- sleep in class undisturbed, splurge on AMAZING dinner, and get foooking buzzed (technically) with ian..[although he and kat were especially uhh.. cozy...] and others. BUt i don't care! he's there, and i was there. that was good enough ;D

oooh, i'm also typing this with the same buzz from outpost. lovely lovely friday the 13th. heeeheeehee

 

where else can your professor treat you to a drink and see him actually drunk! aaaahahahahahhaah nowhere but cebu man. love this place.

Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 02:02 AM | criticize please

fucking a

well, i just found out my husband's a druggie. and he's not going with fiorella... its her friend kat. kinda figured it out myself, didn't need recon for that. anyway, MO (marriage over). ahhahahahahaha whatever!
Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 02:32 PM | criticize please

July 15th, 2007

aaah tangina

did not drink at all tonight. well, maybe just a few sips of red wine. spent most of it observing how 2 groups of people who don't particularly like each other react under the influence. even then we don't like each other AT ALL.

gawd damn it... its sooo fucking on. I'm not even fucking kidding.

its the battle of the ultra talented kids against the ultra arrogant ones.

Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 01:56 AM | criticize please

July 17th, 2007

no more ms. nice girl

i've been nice. in general i mean. but after the weekend, i felt a personality shift. I don't know if it was because i was given the "bitch's job" in van's shoot, or if that "mean girl" character stuck to me after lorenzo's. i don't know. i certainly have been tougher... and more insensitive and to the point..

good?

it's all work really. after shoot and when we're hanging out i'm nice still, i think.

i took on the 1st A.D.s job for our cinematog project again... this time the shoot is more intense because my motivation is to beat the 301s.

 

COMMERCIAL:

i just refreshed my friendster page here is what it gave me:

When it comes to socializing, you can't be too meticulous about your appearance.

In Detail

When it comes to an upcoming date, you can't be too meticulous about your appearance. Is it time for a shopping trip? If you've got the time (and a few extra dollars in your pocket), the stars say that you should check out the new fashions -- you are likely to find the perfect fit. Be mindful of the attitude you are giving off right now -- and remember that your image may be an unsubstantial part of who you are, but it does send a message to potential new friends and lovers.

timing talaga... ang galing galing.

Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 12:07 AM | criticize please

stripped naked

today we showed our dailies in directing class. i know i've shown mine in producing before but this time it was different. It was very... cut throat. Tim sort of went into the production value and shots a little bit but Rob just went in there and commented on everything. I'm not saying it was an awful experience. it was very good actually, i needed feedback like that. we weren't forced to show it or anything-it was voluntary. and i was last to volunteer.

it felt like i was standing naked infront of a crowd. it did. it is a terrible feeling but it's something that you can't avoid in the industry. it's always gonna be there. fucking crazy.

he commented on how my montage stills were schizophrenic. yea, i agree... but he liked how i gave my actor and editor room to breathe. it wasn't the best of comments, it wasn't the worst. definitely constructive.

 

a little silly poem our directing mentor recited during one of his "moments away with us"... 

if my heart had a face, it would frown. -Rob Milazzo

Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 10:40 PM | criticize please

July 20th, 2007

ay papi!

well, i just came home from a drinking spree with my batchmates at the backyard. got tipsy for a while with pia. i believe we were the onlly ones noisy. hahaha but after a "shot" of coke, we were both suddenly sober. i believe i have formed a stronger bond with a new friend.
Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 02:59 AM | criticize please

July 22nd, 2007

the down and dirty

got drunk last night. inner slut let loose. i don't remember most of the things i said, but i didn't pass out or puke or anything like that, at least. GOODNESS. i'm gonna let my liver rest first.
Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 09:11 PM | criticize please

July 25th, 2007

don't think, just do.

"dude, you're already 19 and you don't want to take a chance?!"

 

stings everytime i replay it in my head.

i have been too safe. yes, i haven't regretted anything so far and yes, being safe has made me happy.

but the times that i truly was happy were the times that i didn't care.

 i mean, this entire experience is one hell of a leap of faith!... and i have never been more content.

here's to taking more chances and not caring what the consequences are.

Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 01:01 AM | criticize please

July 28th, 2007

dance like no one is watching

...which i did. the entire night. totally sober. i was running on a bottleof beer and natural high. FUCKING TIRED. after the ad congress, we went back to school to crash the ftv party and danced like hell. and then we sped off to vudu and danced like hell again.

i'm telling you, not only is it a super effective work out, it WILL get you the boys. yes it will. yes it will. not that i did. not that i know of, really. but yea, had to cut my trip short as usual. to leave them wanting some more. mwahaha. kidding. i just had to go home cause my ride wanted to go home. anyway, yea. remember the dude my cebu friends used to push me to? well, they're not anymore. its just that lately, he's been getting on my nerves. he's acting like a complete ass and i'm hating him more and more. ugh.

Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 02:23 AM | criticize please

the one guy im interested in, the one guy i'm willing to put myself out for.... doesn't care. FRUSTRATING.

 

whats more frustrating is that i cannot read him at all.

what i do know is that he's into rock music and playing air drums.. and he's got a hot body. that's pretty much it. other than that... well, i don't know. it really isnt a matter of does he think i'm attractive anymore. its a WHEN THE FUCK WILL YOU MAKE YOUR MOVE GAWDDAMNIT.

 

Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 10:02 AM | criticize please

July 29th, 2007

my knees don't hurt anymore

last night. FUCKING DRUNK yet again. i'll type what i can remember.

i think i fell down. they were chasing me to tickle me. and i fell to my knees. good thing the DOn wasn't there yet.

kevin almost drowned me with beer and he gave me his hanky to wipe it off

met 3 IT guys, and one new head of post production. John, Francis, Lou and Art.

i was very touchy. i had my arms around everyone. i was hugging art too and declaring my undying love for him just because he said i was "sexy" with pushed back hair. btw, Art's Gay.

it was raining last night too.

and we were dancing to diego's spanish music.

kevin was inviting me to go somewhere.... AND I SAID NO. haha

pia came in my room, left her stuff and slept somewhere else. at joeys? at davids? at trox'? ....at diego's?

the D&G came, after my fall. he was drunk too. i was trying to get close to him. he was drunk texting. so he really wasnt paying attention to me. that ass. his status now reads, it's complicated. because of me. mwahhahahahahha  

i have absolutely no hangover. maybe still a little wooooozy

i'm hungry. 

Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 09:43 AM | criticize please

trust issues

WHY is it that he talks to everyone BUT ME. why. why is that.

how come all of my girlfriends know and have experienced his "genuine niceness" EXCEPT ME?

WHY IS HE SINGLING ME OUT LIKE THIS? ITS DRIVING ME FUCKING CRAZY

 

i must have him.

you know what.. if nothing happens this week then.. well.. nothing really.. ill just wait 10 more days and find a new boytoy in the incoming batch.

hahha kidding... well, half-kidding.

but no seriously, he better not wait until i get tired of it. cause when i'm done with him, there's no looking back.

Posted by angelfyre_bubi at 10:12 PM | criticize please