SUNKISSED BRONZED PERFECTION

haluuu been a while. went to highlands with some of my friends over the weekend.funny stuff! pigged out every chance we got. hahaha. Remember that issue with a dear friend? well, good thing we had a chance to talk things over before i posted my angry entry. heheh all is well, we're good- sorrys were exhanged and hugs abundant, we're okay

what else. oohhh here wait..

Your attitude about life is about to get rosier, thanks to a big dose of romance.

In Detail

Your 'ho-hum' attitude is about to turn into a 'hooray!' attitude, thanks to a big dose of romance that's coming your way. The likeliest suspect is a certain overly friendly person who has been flattering you nonstop, but there are many potential new romantic partners in your world right now (be aware, however, that not all of them are as available as they appear to be). Unexpected invitations and mysterious acts of generosity add intrigue to your life -- do you have a secret admirer?

 

totally not true. underlined part? NO ONE! looks like my attitude will continue to be ho-hum. hahahah whatever.. lalalalalalala i'm also hormonal today. sooo yea, you know the drill..  

watched spidey 3 last night. FULL OF CHEESE! ew ew ew ew. i loved the graphics though, venom is the shiznit!

who took off my rose-colored glasses and where did they put it?

gawd, i am probably the most cynical person in makati. not by choice... i can't help it, really. hahahah. oops. sorry to raf who's in the line of fire. i won't be like this when i drive you to the airport, i promise. hahaha

ANYWAY, i like this new song by bobby valentino. called anonymous..

♥For a minute it was looking like
I'd end up one of those guys,
spending my whole life
looking for a special lady to save me
maybe i'll never be satisfied
had a couple bad lucks, and a couple dimes.
(Now that I'm looking for you,) why you so hard to find

[Hook]
I thought I took one step, I took two back
I'm not even close this time and that's a fact
All I know is that we'd be the perfect match
So where you at love?
I just gotta find you yeah.

[Chorus]
I wanna know, I wanna know your name (your name)2x
Why you gotta be anonymous?
I gotta know, I gotta know your name (your name)2x
Why you gotta be anonymous?
Baby I want you so much (so much)
Wanna hold wanna feel your touch
come fast girl i'm in a rush
Why you gotta be anonymous?
I wanna know, I gotta know your name (your name)2x
Why you gotta be anonymous?

[Bridge]
What's your name? (Anonymous)
Where you at? (Anonymous)
Think about you I getta a rush
I wanna meet my miss Anonymous♥

 

lalalala ☺  

i'm bored. i'm waiting for malins message to meet up at the fort so we could convoy to raf's place and make him feel better. but until then, i shall get bored here... i was looking at random blogs, stumbled upon this one site where she listed 15 things why she considered herself weird.. and let me tell you, half of those things are normal occurences in my life... hmmm... okay.. so here i go with mine:

15 things that make me weird:

1) i like stuffing chocolate in my mouth until i can no longer bite..

2) and enjoy waiting for the chocolate to melt.

3) i can sit at one place for a long time just watching people

4) i obsses on how many profile hits i get on friendster (even though i'm on the "yes" setting)

5) i sometimes choose to not be with my friends? (is that weird? sometimes i feel that i need a break from them)

6) i can walk in glorietta with my eyes closed and still know where i'm going.

....

 

...okay so my friends rang already, i shall continue this some other time. s'later

 

to continue:

7)  i got scared watching scary movie 3

8)...

wow, i have to think of more weird things i do..  

i think i've whipped up enough to finish my list

... 

8) when i watch a basketball game, i notice the design of the jerseys first...

9) then the camera angles.

10) cynical is not the word... realist. yea.. i'm a realist. Most of the time, i enjoy bursting peoples bubbles...

           --> why hello, satan.

...

okay, maybe not enough...

 

11) i totally freak out and hyperventilate when something from the past (that i'm completely over and done with) finds its way to come back and haunt me again.

 

just like what is happening right this very moment....

 

 

 

 

i need a drink. 

 

oh perfect, its 5.  

as you may have noticed, i tend to over react and make a big deal out of small things.. yes, i am guilty. okay.. let me just do something here....

11) i totally freak out and hyperventilate when something from the past (that i'm completely over and done with) finds its way to come back and haunt me again.

 

i call for a do-over. that doesn't count at all, i just over reacted. anyway, yea.. caught me off guard... i'm calm now. :D and sane. heheheh yaay

i was browsing through not so old pictures and in all of them, i was wearing my shades.. so i guess that should pave the way for

11) i have a fascination for oversized sunglasses.

 

quoting bryanboy, my "obsession du jour".. yeap yeap yeap.  

i've managed to stab myself in the palm with a lobster thingamajig.. you know, those antler like things they have? that. crapito. if only they weren't soooo delicious. okay no, i wasn't eating them... i was transferring them to the freezer. ate raq hasn't come home yet and my parentals are in singapore... the house is a complete mess!

there's me.... then there's my pregnant sister who isn't supposed to stand up even if her life depended on it, there's my sister who's always MIA who's MIA right about now and there's my little brother... out there somewhere playing basketball with the AR guards.. good gawd. im effin bored. and my palm's sore. i wonder if i'll get sick from the lobster stab. nyahaha. unlikely. ANYWAY, i'm sooo tempted to stalk.. i KNOW i don't want to, and i don't need it plus it'll only upset me.. sooo yea... argh.

and there's no basketball game on tv that i can watch!! nyaaarrghhh 

 

oh, and elections today.. THAT'S why i'm at home... i don't have the guts to go out there and well, go out. it's effin dangerous. well, not really so much but yea. effin scared.  

goy my fish eye camera today.. excitamundo. hoooraaaay

 

 

... and can i just add....

 

MWAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH

i hate what ifs damn it.

what if i was different?

what if i wasn't going to Cebu in 2 weeks?

what if i didn't spend all day watching season 3 of scrubs?

 

it's strange that i'm not at all panicking considering the fact that in a week, i will be flying to Cebu to live ALONE for the first time. damn. I'm incredibly suspciously calm.

has my being "emotionless" come full circle? like, i really can't feel now? that's totally good news, in one way or another since the field i choose to go into calls for heartless bitches... i guess.

but what if i need to create a love story? won't i be totally screwed?

ANYWAY, me-> cebu = 9 days.  

there's this dude who messaged me in myspace. totally hot. heeheeheehee

i used to be afraid of online encounters with all that crazy going on out there. i still was, until 30 seconds ago. i'd like to take it as a sign from the big JC though... crossing my fingers  

hahahah funny how its not really a word but its in conversations? anyway, that dude from myspace. i didn't know what to say to him anymore, got bored... so i let dani type the message, she got all excited- i dunno what for. LOL. nyahahhahah i really don't use that. i'm more comfortable with the "hahahaha" than the LOL-ing. ANYWAY, my whole family's into the south beach diet. because ate needs to, and we're all prone to diabetes hence no fruit and/or carbs for 2 friggin weeks. DAMN IT. its our first day and i'm already regretting it... argh.. i'm so hungry right now its not funny.

ergh. i totally don't know what to say to myspace dude anymore... he gets lame... most of the time. but i gotta give it to him, HE'S HOT (my only motivation, and what a motivation it is). oi

diet update: day 2- i've discovered that oyster sauce goes well with everything. i want my carbs!!!! 

i totally know why im boyfriend-less.

i have a strange feeling my mom offers her novenas to the gods of singledom to make her youngest daughter forever single.. i feeeeeel it. i do! i do! she let it slip awhile ago when we were eating lunch. It was the usual gossiping between the Cortez women and my little brother and then eventually it led to Cebu talk: me living alone, film school, etc. AND THEN she went all like, "oh baka mag paligaw ligaw ka na ha" and she said it with the tone! oh good gawd!! aaahhh!!

i bet you she prays that i ruin it from the inside, hence my commitment issues.

 

i dunno, just a feeling. she's been wierd since that year she shared to us that she went to this fortune teller who UNFORTUNATELY told her that i was gonna get married early. she must've thought i was getting pregnant right off of high school. oi.

i'm telling you, she's so tight with the big man and that must be the reason.

if i'm wrong then, well.. carry on..

 

 

i STILL think there's a lot of crazy out there in the world wide web... especially people from myspace. CRAZY. not the dude i've been talking to, he seems put together, haven't seen the crazy YET. haaaay people..

in 2 days i'll be in Cebu and i made absolutely no plans to say goodbye to my friends. besides, they'll be seeing me in 3 months.. and in 3 months again.. and in 3 months again..

lalala

i HAVE to finish packing...

 

1 day..

to finish packing and somehow magically compress all my belongings into a box that only has to be 20kg.  

IMPOSSIBLE.

 

ANYWAY, yea.. one day left here in Manila... i feel wierd... 

music from Wicked.

  I know
But I don't want it - No!
I can't want it anymore

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by
The rules of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes
And leap...

It's time to try defying gravity
I think I'll try defying gravity
And you can't pull me down

 

I'm through accepting limits
Cuz someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try I'll never know
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost

I'd sooner buy defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye, I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down!

 

So if you care to find me
Look to the Western sky!
As someone told me lately
Everyone deserves the chance to fly
And if I'm flying solo
At least I'm flying free
To those who ground me
Take a message back from me!

Tell them how I am defying gravity
I'm flying high, defying gravity
And soon I'll match them in renown
And nobody in all of Oz
No Wizard that there is or was
Is ever gonna bring me down!!

 

just elphie's part. i like idina menzel. Funny how i can relate? haha