SUNKISSED BRONZED PERFECTION

like you know me..

like i owe you anything...

like its my fault...

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that wasn't about anything. i just thought about it, not about anyone- i promise. hmmm update? sure. Well... uhh.. nothing really to update on. still pretty much the same from the last entry, except now very very calm.

ooh, valentines is coming up- not exactly my most favorite event of the year but hey, i get to donate blood. hoorah. that's my valentines gift to the world.

oh, and we're going up to baguio on the weekend of. i can't say i'm so excited about it. but its dads class' 30th reunion. sooo the brats have to be there, meaning i have to be there... haaay. me + him + her in one place... not so good, i'm hoping i don't run into them at all. i'm still wishing they both get the syph. just to prove my point.  

technically, i looked for him.. so i was stalking. I saw rockys page. i dunno what he's up to... he seems preoccupied with his music. haaay.

I've turned my safety off.

and apparently everything attached to it.

i feel sick, i wanna throw up.

i wanna throw up everything that happened the past year.

im suspended mid-air again.

it's like someone pushed the pause button

and forgot to press play.

valentines today. not so good, not so bad. it is just a day, just like any other. i gave blood today, yahoo. oh, there was one thing i hated in school today. the ROSES. ugh. not because i'm bitter from valentines or anything. ive hated roses since way back when. anyway, they were all over school! goodness! i couldn't handle it.. ew ew ew.. give me sampagita or whatever, just not roses! ick.

now that i have that out of the way: kim my astronomical sister, reminded me of a talk we had before and she said that i chose my career (whatever it is) over love (to whoever).... and yea, i affirmed. career first. ... yeap. ...

i hope that was smart to say. 

well, my valentines didn't end bad. not at all. i spent it with my parents and littlle brother. we ate at the mall of asia, sat in on a free concert and watched fabulous fireworks. yahoo

i'm not feeling so well today, a lot of things are going on in my head.. ugh 

this trip up north is a total waste. i cant believe it. i hate how he's 'that' guy for me, my 'back to you' person. i just wated him to see me, not necessarily me to see him. i hate it i hate it..

ive turned my safety off for no reason.

i finally have that album i've been looking for since last year. anyway, i'm really just wasting time before my pe starts. i'm super bored. plus i don't wanna be here right now.. nosiree.. nope... not me.. argh.

okay.. i can tell that this is gonna be a sucky week. i can tell.. i know it..

first theres that thing that happened during the weekend.. then there's today... i saw what i didn't need to see... plus, its sooooo hot!

 

why cant the world just swallow me up to end my  misery 

why hello.. its been a while. i'm steady. fine. good.

nothing more i could ask for.

i'm going to the iaft. no definite date yet, but i am.

going to cebu for the summer with my mom... so she could see where i wanna go

dlsu isn't choking me so hard anymore. although now i really don't appreciate anything there.