SUNKISSED BRONZED PERFECTION

I spent halloween at sassa's. we played cranium!! hahah kalowka, my head was aching after... hahahaha anyway i slept over there with dani and you know... we stayed up for our usual dose of girl talk. It was fun to reminisce and stuff like that. watched the pf vid also.. VERY FUNNY.. ahhahahaha i miss that.. i miss them.. i miss us. But it's never gonna be the same no matter what we do. or what we try to do... and that sucks ice.

ANYWAY, i've got a lot of things on my mind right now.. not necessarily about school.. or friends...

i'm getting really frustrated. ano ba, should I do it? i don't have much time.. plus i've got only my dignity to lose...

my fucking ass prof decides to give us a fucking 5 point quiz tomorrow... and can i just say that before that is a 3 hour break and before that break is a fucking math class which i'm not doing so well at... and all of this on Nov. 3.. when EVERYONE else is enjoying themselves at home, doing nothing....... FUCK THAT SHITTTT!!!!!!! losing my head over here...

ANYWAY,

it's so weird how i think of really really witty things to write about and when finally i get a chance to write about it i either a) forget or b) end up writing it so dramatic it doesn't sound as witty anymore... or you know, i make it sound like its so personal.

like lets say i have this opinion about virginity and i wanna write about it, when i do, it always sounds like a journal.. or a poem or something emotional like that. gaah..yun lang.. just ranting.

watched 40yr-old virgin by the way... FUNNY! haha 

wanna go out... outy out out... oooohhh.. you know what.. i wanna go to the parlor and/or spa and get my hair and my nails done.. plus a facial and a massage. oh that would be super nice... yea.. i think i'm gonna do that tomorrow...

"cali's" back... after what, 4 years? he looks hotter than ever. hahaha can't believe it though, didn't really expect to see him there- or ever actually... brings back wonderful/unpleasant memories of 7th grade. hahahahaha.. he's here.. he's here...

DON'T wanna go to school tomorrow... i don't really care now

yea.. imagine it.. if there was no memory all we'll be living for is the here and now. wouldn't i kill to live like that. no worries, no strings attached, no drama. crazy how the past has that kind of effect on us.

speaking of past, i seem to have mine infront of me... i don't know what it's doing there, but it is there...

i know i've already tossed it aside, don't want anything to do with it anymore.

Everything and everyone seemed to have settled. I think it's okay to go out now. The past few days have been crazy! signals have been thrown everwhere, from everyone... i dunno what to think of it- as usual.

Anyway, as ive said, every ones settled and so am i. couldnt be any better.... school is so stressful right now, more work was given after the midterms...hassle! waaaaaahhhhh so christmas is coming up. 40++ days more...i looooove christmas, LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT

so you retreat?

i understand

i would too,

only if i wasn't sure

but i know you are

so... wtf is that?

so i get this special package from the embassy a while ago. Like the embassy.. not embassy superclub. so yea, they already sent me the application for my immigrant stat. my mom said once i've completed my application it won't be long till i get my green card, so i've got to do it near the end of the SY.

i applied for a green card so i can have a scholarship grant from the states and finally get into my dream school, AAU... so this is a good thing right? why the hell am i feeling like i can't decide again?

I'm hella confused right now. It's like senior year all over again.

ayyy... school is exhausting. But i'm not complaining.. better this than nothing to do at all. Anyway, i'm TRYING to enroll... i don't fucking know how to- AGAIN! plus the systems down too. kalowka mygads.. garrrrrr... ooh and get this, the game joji was supposed to take me to is in lucena city!!!!!! waaaaaaahhhh!!! unfair!!!! of all the effin games to take to lucenca city, it HAD to be the one i WANTED to watch! argh! hmmm. what else what else... decided to calm down and move on.. i really have got nothing to do with "it" anymore.

Here in psych

waiting for my ride

to get me out of this

hellhole

and bring me to

the temporary bliss

of the weekend.

so yea, i was tempted.. but hooray me, i didn't. clap clap clap. Im getting in control now, hehe yea.... bazaar season started yesterday.. :D all at cuenca yahooooo...oh guess what??? that hot girl from the pussy cat dolls is actually HALF filipina!! yaaay hooray for filipinas.. hahaha anyhoos, finally have my nano.. i can now belong to the "i have my own world" crowd... nyahahaha kidding. but yea, cooliness :D also got the pics from my debut.. nice nice.. hmmm nothing much to say :D

ate made me read this book and it sort of opened my eyes... yea...

i've been saying that i don't care for how long now....

and this is the first time i actually mean it.

 

i have a ticket outta here... and i think i'm gonna use it.

Im so effin stressed right now. and its so sad that its caused by things at home.