SUNKISSED BRONZED PERFECTION

results in 12 hours.. hopefully, earlier.

got my glasses,

I CAN SEE!!!

heart pounding like it never did.

pootah.. found out they won't post the results over the net.

I DON'T WANNA GO THERE JUST TO FIND OUT!!

its too scary... i'm too scared

i want somebody else to look for me.. i can't do it.... I CAN'T

i might faint.. or cry... or jump... or kill myself

or something...

m n d way to dlsu to know my fate... ive got to swallow my heart.... and try to keep my heart rate down....

my heart was thumping as we ran every red light, overtook all the cars infront of us and break every possible traffic law there is.

I was ready to puke out my guts as i stepped out of the car, into the lasalle gate....

I was ready... ready to faint for whatever I find out...

what i wasn't ready for was,

"ah.. bukas pa."

why am i not stressed?

i am still incredibly calm.

Why do i have to be calm?

is something gonna happen that requires me to be like this?

huh? why? why? tell me!

i'm still at home... stalling as much as possible.

i'm not nervous, no.. not this time..

i just want to get over it... while not wanting to face it.

That's possible, right?

of course..

that's what i'm doing now.

 

 

got in.... i did...

finally i can breathe normally....

2nd choice though, advertising.. not bad.. not bad at all...

if only cam wasn't closed. but still..

 i have a school...

and a shot with...

didn't exactly get drunk last night...

got tipsy which was close enough.

I hung out with my friends at the Fort and GB

danced till the wee hours of the morning in Prince.

(and got a little sumn sumn out of that.. haha)

ate breakfast with my sister and our "brother"

and i even got to drive home.

 

 

Nothing really did spoil my day yesterday...

i'm hungry.. pizza's on the way

i feel wiiieeerrrrdddddd

Flirt like you've never flirted before -- getting chased after is good exercise!...

 

hahah i LOVE it.

hmmmm.... went to lasalle to confirm my slot.. not bad. enrollment is on thursday and friday.. dunno when i'll go.. i don't even know how to. I might enroll myself to BS MATH or something hellish like that.

Today was rather productive.

First thing I did was go to the Hospital to get my xray taken. That was quick.. like 8 minutes tops.... nothing happened there.. then 

I went to ateneo to shoot in a gallery for the first time, no more of those soda cans and birds at the beach. The coach said I was actually good for a first timer [or maybe he just said it because ate was one of his best shooters...haha]. Anyway, yea.. that was fun. The people were nice too, even after they found out I was from lasalle ["change your aim!!"] hahah that was funny. I hope I get to train with them, I really want a team... especially a shooting team. I don't care if I have to travel all the way to Ateneo to train, I want to compete, and to be able to compete for something i might possibly be good at, well that's a first for me. I met up with my friends too, nice to see them in their new element.. hehehe. I will see more of that... [hopefully].

So after Ateneo, we went to Glorietta to meet up with the designer. Edgar Allan's a nice dude/tte? he's very sociable, I like him. I think that's why mom said yes in an instant to a p10000 gown too, she likes him a lot. 

and then we went to dinner at the Fort and played the "first sound" game. that was hella funny.. hahahh so all in all, i had a good day, even if my left pointer finger went numb for awhile. it was cool.. very very cool :D

I am now officially enrolled. hoorah hoorah.. 2 gruelling days of waiting, falling in line and scoping out the cutie status. My fingers and toes aren't enough for the latter. :D

I got a glimpse of who my classmates will be yesterday... and I got a glimpse of who my campus crush would be.. hehe.. I even got his name! :D lets just hope he's single.

COLLEGE HERE I COME

School starts on Monday for me. I hope I make great new friends...

I specifically hope I make him my friend... or he makes me his...

hahahaha landi amp.... its gonna be great...

great great great.

came from aoui's debut...

extremely tired, but i don't think i wanna sleep yet.

I can't believe i'm actually going to school tomorrow. I don't know if i'm excited or lazy or giddy. uhhmmmmm...

I have a gazillion things on my mind right now and my blood is once again racing to places so fast.

But the thing is I DON'T WANT it to rush anywhere.

I think it's time to pull out the old "It's-time-to-stab-myself-in-the-heart" act. It's been gathering dust and it looks like it missed me.

here at the caf alone... not really minding it. i mean it IS my first day... saw him though... not as attractive as the other day, but ill take him nonetheless. haha also sat beside this boy... i didnt see if he was cute or not. sounded like he was. neway my next class wont be 4 another hour... guess im gnna have to read my book. pakshet.

soo overall, the day was OKAY.. not great, not bad.. it was okay.. sleepy the whole time. Don't really wanna talk about it.

I can't pressure myself about this.

I just simply can't.

#1 because it's too early to tell, and #2 well... I don't wanna drive myself crazy.

I am officially a stalker. I can't believe i did it.

Although it was funny.. hahahahhahahahaha

Why do i feel like i'm in Middletown again? I'm not depressed or anything like that... i'm upset. I don't know why.

I feel like fucking crap. I knew I should've quit while I was still ahead, while I was still the bigger man.

BUT of course, being myself..i didn't... and now... NOW i'm like this...

fuck it.

m soooooooo fucking sleepy u have no idea. in need of a good cup of coffee or a shot of bj..or tequilla 4 that matter

don't resist.... give in

GIVE IN!!

4 my sake...

I dunno if it's Post or Pre MS.. but I DON'T CARE! There's this dude in class, he's starting to get extra irritating (Note the EXTRA part..) I'm so happy we don't have the same sched tomorrow.

2nd week of school starts tomorrow.. it's okay i guess... I'm only choosing between the 2 of them now, let's see who wins.

It's been ages since i last wrote. Like REALLY wrote. Anyway, It has all been a blur. From my first day to today. I'm really not sure how I feel about things right now... I'm letting life drag me again - and i can't say that i don't like it because frankly, if I was given that kind of freedom, i'd be nowhere.

Eye candies are plentiful in school, i have no problems there. Especially since one of my own is ALWAYS there...the other one? well, let's just say that it's always a treat when i see him around.

im waiting 4 the sign to show itself... should i not anticipate it? im worried...

There's a lot of things happening right now, and remember when I said that I started to not feel again? well, all those feelings caught up and guess what... I've never been so sad.

That sign i was asking for wasn't really a "positive sign", Then there's the thought of someone you care about being unhappy... What do you say to that? And of course, there's this thing that's been hovering over me since the weekend.

What's happening? am I driving myself off the road?... or is someone else driving for me?

well today... i found out that it's not just me, it's the entire world.. or maybe just the university. Does DLSU have that kind of effect on people? weird... and scary. Anyway, I finally told someone about my "list" and it felt good.. although my heart still feels heavy.

what do you want me to do??

lalalalalala.. that song is actually funny and cute...

i'm.. okay... confirmed it was PMS...

soo week 2 over. Watched the cheering with my friends yesterday.. nothing spectacular.. of course, I still am bitter.. no matter what excuse i make. hahahah anyway, hung out with my friends' ateneo friends. they're crazy! hahaha very very funny, they're a nice bunch of kids. :D sooo yea... School's fine, really.. I don't like "him" anymore.. i really don't. Like genuinely positively not.

I am liking the one before him though, this one for sure.

How sad is it that i'm doing EXTRA math work on a saturday night? oh wait, here's something saddER: It's not even required. LIke i'm actually doing this because i want to. hmmmmm....

I went to the parlor today, supposedly just to do my nails and hair treatment. BUT, when i stepped out, my hair was already two inches shorter.... It's not really bad, i just like my hair long... yknow? like LONG.. hehehe anyway, yea... am i really turning into a geek? hahhaahaha!!!

oh poo.. i think i am.

Well, I'm surprisingly bored at Lasalle. In and out of class. Well actually.. more bored out of... so meaning its better while classes are going on. I'm actually NOT complaining.

Oh when oh when would you show me That sign?

ladidadidadida... i have a physics quiz tomorrow and i know squat...

damn it.. damn it to hell!!!!!!! friendster ruins everything.. damn it.

My throat hurts to damnation.