I am sooo fucking confused right now you have got no idea.
my blood is rushing to places so fast like the cars in 101
i think i'm gonna have to faint in a few minutes
hahahahaha... don't you think that the message of that song is the same reason why there are high rates of domestic abuse? i dunno, i mean, the song itself is nice and it is by destiny's child. but.. gaaah, i just hate it when women act like slaves. damn it. hahah okay, whatever. i was just rambling and that was not the reason why i wanted to write here
i have been thinking, and i think that my head is on straight this time, and that feeling i felt last night was temporary and fleeting. which is good, right?
lindsay lohan is too thin, i liked her better when she was curvy.
3 of my closest friends came by to chat :D Mar, Mika and raf. we had so much fun remeniscing and shit like that.. heheh
gaaaah, i'm sort of excited for tomorrow night. sort of, i hope people will have fun. I actually don't mind if just my friends show up.. i'm sure we'll have a lot of fun by ourselves. But hey, who knows what Lasalle can offer. hahahahahah
the party turned out okay. it was fun actually, most of my friends were here. that was fun. :D anyway, anyway, tried studying a while ago, i actually did.. a little. dani's notes are way better than mine, it was like i was learning geometry for the first time all over again. :D hahah soo yea.. as my title says, i have lost all feeling... and i'm not kidding.
i feel throw uppy.
is that how you really spell hoping? it looks like "hopping" heheh. anyway, i think i'm done studying that's why i'm here in the mall, waiting to watch a movie. I wanna say that i'm nervous but i'm not really feeling it right now. i wanna say that i'm ready but i'm not convinced. i wanna say that it'll be alright... all my friends keep on saying it..
to hope against hope is a funny thing.
i felt something a while ago, frustration.
it's not a very good feeling but it is an emotion...
... taking it one emotion at a time..
i don't wanna say the test was easy.. because it wasn't. The math part was HELL. good thing rica and miko were there.. i wouldv'e ripped my hair out if i was alone. anyway, the reunion/lunch was uber fun. a lot of my batchmates were there just chillin and hanging out. it was really nice to see all of us together :D anyway, i'll know the test results by sept. poootah tagal.. garrrr.. until then, ima continue living my bum life. :D
Everyone longs to give himself completely to
someone,to have a deep soul relationship with
another to be loved thoroughly and exclusively.
But God says to the Christian: Not until you
are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being
loved by Me alone with giving yourself totally
and unreservedly to Me; with an intensely personal
and unique relationship with Me alone, discovering
that only Me is your satisfaction to be found
will you be capable of the perfect human
relationship that I have planned for you? You will
never be united with another until you are united
with Me exclusive of anyone or anything else,
exclusive of any other desire or longings.
I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and
allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan
existing one that you can never imagine. I want
you to have the best. Please allow me to bring it
to you. You just keep watching Me, expecting the
greatest things. Keep experiencing the
satisfaction that I am. Keep listening and
learning the things that I tell you. You just
wait, thats all. Dont be anxious. Dont be worried.
Dont look around at the things others have
gotten or that Ive given them. Dont look around at
the things you think you want. You just keep
looking at Me, or youll miss what I want to show
you. And then, when you are ready, Ill surprise
you with a love far more wonderful than any you
would dream of. You see, until you are ready, and
until the one I have for you is ready (I am
working even at this moment to have both of you
ready at the same time) until you are both
satisfied exclusively with Me, and the life
prepared for you, you wont be able to experience
the love that exemplifies your relationship with
Me, and this is the perfect love. And, dear one, I
want you to have this most wonderful love. I want
you to see in the flesh a picture of your
relationship with Me, and enjoy materially and
concretely the everlasting union of beauty,
perfection and love.
What I offer you is MYSELF. Know that I love
you utterly. I am God. Believe it and be satisfied
**very interesting how he replies to my woes, don't you think? **
i don't know why i thought there was something here
i don't know why i even came back.
how i envy my friends who have left, who are leaving, who didn't come back.
i am bored. merde
i think we're going to lago tomorrow..
andi haven't got any greens
double merde
i have given up on whatsits
i could not care less
i have reached this level of boredom that i have never reached before.
i really do hope we push through with lago tomorrow or i might have to do something weird to my hair yet again.
i think my "self-portrait via d-snap" talents are getting rusty... it sucks because i am in dire need of a good friendster picture.
might as well stick a gun inside my mouth and i'd still be bored after i pull the trigger
okay, maybe that was a bit exaggerated. but yes, this is how i feel right about now. amazing how i've watched basketball from 2-9 all fucking day. 2-6 was the uaap, after that i caught the pba draft, and after that i caught the Philippine team against India.
Is this a sign, God? would you want me to be a cheerleader for a team? or perhaps,you would want me to play basketball too... hmmm... i can run after the ball and pretend to wave my arms up in the air, but other than that, i believe i am useless. so yes, take it or leave it.
i am drowning myself in amazingly good-tasting orange juice. maybe tomorrow i'll turn orange... is it the same with carrots? i don't think so.. but it's worth a try. i DO have the time.. and i have nowhere to go tomorrow, i think. so yes, it won't matter if i turn orange. or get bloated by orange juice.. at least it's good tasting.
mui pathetico
drinking a lot of orange juice wasn't very smart. I now feel very throw uppy (and craving bacon.. while we're at that). still EXTREMELY BORED.
there's a lot of smooching on tv. it's unbearable. at first i could tolerate it, but now i'm just disgusted.
maybe i've just conditioned myself.. ahh yes, as i was drinking my nth glass of orange juice while watching people smooch.. ivan pavlov, i trust your theories.
bummity bum bum
that trip to lago, i think, is a no go. i don't know why. anyway, i don't mind. hmmm.. what can i do tomorrow? should i go to the gym and try to sweat off all the o.j. i chugged down? but of course aside from being bored, i am very very lazy.
bumsy bum bummity bum
goodness i need to burp this orange juice...
oddly enough, i am still looking for whatever form of basketball there is on TV.. you'd think i had enough.. I thought i had enough.
so i've finally satisfied my 3-day old craving for sushi. hoorah hoorah
so yea.. we were at the stop over eating and there was this hottie who kept looking back at us.. (or me.. i'd like to think haha) anyway, he was alone, very hot, very very cute. and then after a while i thought, this isn't right.. so i turned back, and there it was.. the motorcycle. that damned motorcycle.. and after a few minutes the hottie left. damn it. anyway, i didn't care cause i was eating wonderful wonderful sushi.
soooo.. today wasn't very different from yesterday.. except of course that orange juice bit, i don't think i'm gonna be drinking orange juice for a while. hmmm.. 2nd round scheds are out. wouldn't be making the game on sunday.. or saturday or whenever that game against FEU is. those damned tamaraws has finally been defeated.
All hail the red warriors, thank you for teaching them a lesson.
I AM BORED OUTTA MY WITTS!!
here at the mall...
bought what i needed/wanted.. hoorah for me...
at least im not stuck at home AGAIN.
I am gonna have to get used to Filipino boys not being aggressive. I keep on forgetting that we are very conservative and we don't just go up to a person to ask for their number. which sucks big time. I like tradition, i do.. but there are just times that i want to shove tradition up where "the sun don't shine".
Have you ever experienced a time where you KNOW that there's this one dude who is completely attracted to you and yet he doesn't do anything? because:
1) because he's too shy 2) he thinks you might think he's 'too aggressive' 3) God forbid, he's one of those torpe dudes. (which actually just sums up #'s 1 and 2) ngaragggggg..
ANYWAY, i was just venting out something that happened a while ago. So, i was with my friends for u break.. starting to be a regular at the venue actually.. weird.. hahaha
BORED
You did notice that i was incredibly calm, right?
No?
well.. i was.. i mean, i am.
i would normally plan our wedding by now, but since i haven't been my usual uber-sensitive/emotional self lately.. i guess a wedding is out of the question.
i asked for another sign... a sign that will tell me if theres a possibility for a relationship.
i asked for anything... he gave me a dream. the setting and the plot was irrelevant but there was 1 charater that i took as THE SIGN....
i was wth a group of friends, dancing... i was flirting with this 1 guy but i ended up cuddling with another dude....
one TALL dude...
i will leave it at that.
gaaah just came home from dinner.
twas VERY interesting. we got a chance to see a "boodle fight" ? (dunno how 2 spell it)
neway, yea the pma cadets who did the silent drill were all here... very
interesting to be one of the only few eligible bachelorettes in a uhm.... crowd of peemayers. funny.
mde me think of 'him' tuloy.....
dyu notice that i like prolonging words? hehe i noticed it just now. labo.
anyhoos, here in quad. gonna meet up with my friends a little later. i'm uber uber hungry...
wanna go back to Davao where everything is fresh and cheap and lovely ;D
my gulay... remember how i said that i don't have feelings? like i don't feel? well.. strange thing, i felt something, for this someone...
i felt kiligy when i was talking with "HIM" (mikaaaa!) hahaha not like real kiligy like i-see-a-future-with-this-guy type of kiligy but just a schoolgirl crush type kiligy.. hahah funny sobra.. i love that feeling :D
if i tell someone.. it'll make it official.. it'll make it real.
i'm not sure if i'm ready for that.
i think i'm satisfied with what i have... or what i DON'T have...
as of right now.
what is it with me and basketball? my mind revolves around it, i'm not sure its healthy.
I've been marathoning OTH season 1 and then i watched rp basketball a while ago.. spotted a hopefully single hardcourt hottie... heheh kulit. forgot the name. anyway, yea.... its making me crazy. i don't wanna be a fanatic or something.. maybe i'm just like this because there's nothing else to distract me from the TV.. sooo yea....
crapolaaaaaa
got that in big fish. hahaha
anyway, I am scared.. and nervous... and excited and hopeful and so many other things.. at the same fucking time.
its crazy shit.. i'm telling you its craaazy shit. results will be out in a day..
i think i wanna cry.. i probably will.. whatever the result is.
i drank tea that was supposed to make me sleep... well it's already 1:30 am and i'm still wide awake! damn it.
i'm gonna get my incredibly high prescripted glasses tomorrow.. er.. later i mean... i'm excited sort of cause i got cutesy (not to mention expensive [so they have to be extremely cute]) frames for half the price! hoorah....and i'm excited that i won't have to squint even when i'm wearing glasses.
4 entries in one day.. a new world record broken... gaaahhh freaking bored damnit.
just crossed my mind: i'll try incredibly hard not to wish i was a bum again when i'm already studying cause if there's one thing that's as worse as being stressed is NOT- at all.. i thnk i'm feeling a hint of sleepiness..
