SUNKISSED BRONZED PERFECTION

hmmm.. it has been a while. i'm surprised at myself, not wanting to update this site. actually, i TRIED to.. but the background won't stick and i dunno where to put it so whatever.
uhm.. i have been fine. i mean, yea. FINE. schools okay. not entirely great but its okay.

ANYWAY, i soo wanna see him again. i just wanna confirm if i like like him or not. or you know, just to see him. i see signs when i don't ask for them and when i do, i don't. its hella weird.

i'll just get back to ya when i feel like writing for real.

so i registered for the wrong test
and took the SATII instead of the SATI.
which lead to my fucking brain damage
and probably screwed up my VERY LITTLE chance of ever passing ateneo.

so?

so yea, a simple mistake cost me my future...

PUTANGINA!!!!!!!

i felt my brain slipping away... i was fighting for dear life to remember what ms. Joven taught me sophomore year. all i could remeber was that she was spoon-feeding the whole class.
i have never been this unprepared for in my entire life!!!!!!

THANKYOUVERYMUCH!!!
damn... i am so screwed. soooo fucked up...

my night was verrrry verrrry interesting:
so my party wasn't an OVERALL SUCCESS, but it was very near it.

1) we prepared and cooked everything (which hopefully everybody liked)
2) everyone i invited came...... including argentina boy.... i beso-d him.. i did. .i really did.. too bad he aint my crush anymore! haha!

'he' came too of course...beso-d him..his voice is incredible.. i'm guessing he's taken voice lessons or that was sheer talent.

(damn... i think i may have jinxed it right before it even started.... he is a possible _ _ _).... tangina...

Guess who's

insecure
jealous
pissed
not getting the attention she needs
frustrated
incomplete
unsatisfied...

guess who's not feeling anything.

we went to NY/NJ for the weekend to watch beauty and the beast in broadway. it was nice. the props and the set was incredible.. soooo soooo sooo beautiful...
we walked around timesquare, window shopping, got pictures, had oodles of fun... it really was a nice experience.. and then when i got home, i checked my fucked up SAT2 scores...
they were fucked up alright.....fucked up real bad....

today was the ncc halloween party
i was a gypsy.. pretty kewl actually, i looked like a gypsy. i mean, at least someone recognized what my costume was.
ANYWAY, it was one of my most frustrating days to date.
we were both trying hard to avoid each other, i know it. it might be him, or me... but what was supposed to be there wasn't and we both know it.
No Hello's nor goodbyes... im frustrated.

Ive already ran away from this. its coming after me.
i was not scared, i was infact, prepared. i was ready to put it all out but i choked. what ashame. a perfect opportunity gone to waste.

i've slept on it. and as my psych teacher said, once u've slept on something, your brain will somehow get to a solution on your sleep.
and i've been thinking about it too. i was flipping over something so stupid and shallow.

to hell with it man.
i have got better things, MORE IMPORTANT things to flip out on.
theres college, midterms, and all that ish...

daymn.. forget about it!