can't i get just a little hint as to where i'm supposed to go? i'm really supposed to figure this out all by myself? As you may have guessed, i'm still in shambles even after an action packed trip abroad. it's really frustrating considering this has been going on the entire summer and it's not just my hormones talking.a friend suggested that maybe i should keep still.

I have been.

i'm being ignored.

"i'm writing" isn't an excuse.

i'm abusing it.

 

i don't know what else to say, and i don't know why the hell i can't do anything about it.

i have been in fucking shambles for the past month, i'm letting it happen because i'm thinking that's what i'm supposed to do- just let things happen. i have rallied otherwise but here's where I was led...and unless i learn in 24 hours why i'm sent here, i will have to deal (unarmed). unfortunately.

i wonder whats wrong with the internet at home. i'm not. but i'm in the village. i'm at the foic's residence.makes me think that the gods don't want me to read the past anymore. better that than deleting it.

anyway.. ehh..

i've been on hiatus from the (social) world for about the entire summer. because:

1) i want to

2) i'm writing

3) i'm soul searching (seriously.)

and... well, i've immersed myself in asian drama.

asian boys really are cute, yea?

 

hmm.

hullllow. Im not at home, obviously. Ehh.. Nothing really new. Im starting to write again..if that's news for anyone.

i dont know whats up with our connection at home but i really couldnt open tabulas there. Im at the mall now, getting my nails done. It's insanity. A lot has obviously happened since the last post and ive been using that surprisingly easy to love posterous..mainly because you kinds see how many people read you... And you know how vair vair vain i am with these kinds of things.. Right after i publish anything i read it over and over agaiin. With the posterous featture, i get more obsessed with how many people actually READ me. Its a little insane. Link! Reenacortez.posterous.com. And while youre at it, why dnt you follow me on twitter because i feel like people shold know what im doing every second of every day. NOT. Forgive the typos. Im mibile and its freezing cold where i am i can barely feel my thumb.